Yesterday, I got a chance to recharge a little bit.
I went to my favorite spot, Wayfarer’s Chapel in Rancho Palos Verdes. Got a little time to think, pray, and clear my mind. Spent a little time thanking God too.
I thought I had a good handle on my life lol But the more I wake up each day, the more I realize that there’s more I want to do and the more I want to do, the more stressful it is on me… which translates to being a complete and utter mess! I have always embraced challenges. I know that if I do not struggle, adjust, and overcome, my life would be stagnant. The last thing I want to do is be stagnant or mediocre when I have a God and family who are looking to me to be great. I always want to be growing and learning and working on being the best version of myself, even if it kills me.
I’m juggling quite a few things and I feel my patience isn’t the same as it used to be 😛 With people I know, I’m short fused. I find that I am no longer empathetic to the problems they have, because let’s face it, I have a crapload of problems of my own that I’m barely getting a hold of. My personality is to absorb the emotions they feel as they talk to me, but lately, I… I just don’t care? Ouch. That hurts for me to say.
As I finished this semester, I feel like I’ve changed. I had to handle full time work with full time studying. I am still recovering from the mental and physical exhaustion. I am still not content though… I feel like even though it was an amazing accomplishment, there were things I could have handled better…