If you read my other post, you’d know that I’ve been playing the piano again. I’m awful, so don’t get your hopes up 😛 It’s a little frustrating though, because my fingers are so stiff and I couldn’t even play the scales as smoothly as I used to. I can’t pick up on the technique and my fingers keep bumping into each other and getting tangled. They just do their own thing sometimes 😀
I’m trying to play a song and compose my own version of it by memorizing the chords and making my own melody. My Mom found out I’ve been practicing again, and with a song that she knows, so she always wants to sing as I play. That used to deter me from practicing, I never wanted to play the piano for people, it was always something I wanted to do for myself. That’s why I never took it seriously before, because they always expected me to play in front of everyone, and that’s why I never practiced.
That’s changing now. I really do love the sound of the piano. It’s my study music, it’s something I sometimes meditate to… it’s just something that really gives me a sense of peace. I’ve been able to do a lot of the things I couldn’t do before, like read a book for fun, work out for fun, learn a new song on the piano, I’m taking care of a lot of plants and they’re not dying (it’s a miracle), and I think I’m gonna learn another language while I have all this free time too. Sometimes I think about other people too much and I think that overwhelmed me for the past decade of my life. I’m doing things for me now, and my mind is clearer and I feel like my heart… I don’t quite know how to describe it, but.. it’s taking care of itself now, it’s not so worried about everyone else, at least not at this exact moment.
I think we need moments like this in life. Like a recharge. So go! Do something that makes you happy! Take care of yourself because it’s the only way you can live better and love better!