Guess who started working as an RN?? Hehehe
I am seriously on cloud 9 right now despite the eye bags and zombie walk. I know it’s just the beginning and I know I’ve been itching to start working for a really long time now and maybe that’s why I’m so happy. But seriously, despite all of the doubt I had about my future, the feeling I have right now is thankfulness. I always thought I was ready. I had that kind of pride. But looking back, the past 3 months working as a PCA helped me so much. The past couple days I’ve had working as an RN have gone by so quickly and somewhat smoothly because I knew where everything was, I could easily talk to that confused patient trying to take off her gown to get back into bed (until shift change hehe) and I knew who I could ask for help from. The nurses who I’m giving report to or helping transfer patients to and from units, I’ve worked with most of them, so I’m comfortable talking to them and they’re comfortable with helping me and teaching me. The experience I’ve had has been invaluable and I can’t believe it’s taken me this long to really appreciate what I’ve experienced. Like for real, before I kept saying, ohhh it’s a good experience, but seriously, I wanted to be working as a nurse STAT.
Of course, I am very blessed to be in the kind of hospital I’m in. Their attitude towards patient care and towards new grads like me make me feel extremely comfortable. I have 2 of the most crazy preceptors. One is like a mom-figure to me who has been sooo nice and approachable and the other is like that big sister that is on your case to make sure you get things done right so you’re ready to be on your own. I like that dynamic 😛 And of course, it helps that they are extremely smart nurses. I’m super blessed to be working with both of them and I know I’m on my way to being the kind of nurse I planned on becoming from the beginning.
All in good timing, right? Everything I’ve experienced up to this point has been a part of God’s plan. I’m in the hospital i’m in so that I can be the kind of nurse I’ve always wanted to be… even if the commute makes me crazy. It took me this long because I had to experience a few things to prepare me to take on this new role with more ease and readiness. I’m really happy right now and I can see the things that I’ve worked on come to fruition.
Lesson of the day? Don’t sweat it if you don’t get what you want right away. Trust the struggle and trust the process. Pray and have faith that God is looking out for you and He has something in store that is much greater than anything that you could ever plan for. Waiting is hard, working like a pig is hard. But life is hard. Just because you believe in God it doesn’t mean that life is supposed to get easy. Believing in God doesn’t mean that you’re always going to get what you want. So keep fighting, keep waiting, keep working, and keep trusting. Things will work out and then they won’t, but in the end, you’re a little bit smarter, a little more stronger, and even if it’s just a little, you’re on your way to becoming a better version of yourself 🙂