Isn’t weird how people know what they want, when the reality is that they really don’t? What they really know is what they don’t want, and then they assume that what they want is the things they don’t don’t want. Confusing, right? Yeah, I lost myself too. But it is frustrating to hear people say, you’re too young, you don’t know what you want. You don’t know what to be. You need to venture out into the world and explore. And then there are those people who seem to know you more than you know yourself.
Well, I’m young. But I know what I want. I know what I’m meant to do. I’m not expecting myself to live up to all my expectation, I’m not expecting to fulfill all my goals, but I do expect myself to try my best to get them. I do expect many many obstacles. I do expect verging off the path once in a while. It’s going to happen, because life is never what you expect it to be. But I am meant to be better than any temptation or obstacle that gets in my way. I am meant to be stronger and wiser. I am meant to be something different. Something against the ordinary and the typical. You probably laugh at my optimism, but for far too long I’ve assumed what I want to be is what I am going to be. But not everything goes your way, and what you want isn’t always what you get. So now that I know what I am meant to be, I embrace it. All the anticipated pain, frustration, sadness, all the loss, confusion and distance. All of it. Because all of it is going to build the amazing person I am meant to be. I look forward to these days. I really do.