I used to use this blog as my devotional/prayer site. I think I’m gonna try and keep that in the mix while I work to make this a new routine in my schedule 🙂 So here it goes:
In my very short 25 years of life, I feel like I’ve gone through a lot and I’ve asked God for a lot of things. Some of things I’ve asked for, I never got. For the most part, I’ve gotten something much better. And as far as I can remember, I credit my faith for helping me get through all the challenges that life has given me and my relationship with God that I try to pursue wholeheartedly. I’ve attempted to live out a faith where people can see God through my actions and that I could be that proverbial light on hill for others to see. I really hope that people can see God in what I do, but hey, I’ll never know, will I?
So here I am, challenging myself once again, to live out my faith and go a little further than I have in the past. Just in the last 5 years, I have seen God’s love for me displayed in so many ways. Yes, there were so many nights of crying, a lot of years of worrying, and days and days of loneliness. No one has really been able to see that side of me…. But I don’t think I could appreciate all the blessings I have today if I didn’t have to struggle through all of that first. Essentially, all of those hard times have helped me see my struggles in a new light and I find myself pursuing and embracing hard times because I know that those are the moments that help me rely on God the most and those are the times I find myself growing so much.
God,
Thank you.
There are so many reasons for you to have given up on me, to stop loving me, to stop caring. Yet, you have remained my biggest supporter and greatest friend in my endeavors to be the best I can be. Right now, I’m on a high in life. I’ve gotten more than I could ever ask for in terms of family, career, and friends. I know that all of these good things are not permanent, that sooner or later, I will have to work and fight and struggle once again for something new and greater.
I pray that I always have a heart of gratitude. I pray that whenever blessings come into my life I learn to always praise You. I pray that when I am struggling and at my lowest, that I still know how to praise You. I really am nothing without You. I’ve seen it. And I know that I can’t be who I am supposed to be without You guiding me. As I start grad school and explore new relationships, I pray that I never get so distracted that I forget to keep You at the center of my life. I pray that I never make the excuse of being too busy for You.
Once again, I look to You. I have faith that there are great things in store for my future and the plans You have for me are better than anything I can imagine for myself. Give me the strength and courage to pursue it wholeheartedly and help to live out a faith that is pleasing to You.