Sasha, you’re so quiet.
You’re a really quiet person, huh?
I don’t see you talk a lot.
Well thanks everyone for stating the obvious. At a certain point, you do get tired of this. Yes, I’m quiet. Yes, I’ve always been like this. For a long time, I would be insecure about this and as a result, I would try to be “loud” and outspoken. These kind of comments made me so insecure that I would try changing myself just so that people would stop labeling me as the quiet one. They made it sound like such a bad thing.
You see, what people don’t realize is that I am very happy being quiet. I enjoy it so much. When you spend time listening and observing, you learn a lot more from life. You notice things, things people don’t see. And I love that. While people might think my quiet nature is a weakness, I find it to be my strength, my greatest asset. My quietness branches out to a plethora of different traits that I am so proud of. I know I’m a good listener. I know that I can be trusted with a secret. I can say things in ways that are helpful and not hurtful. I know how to see things from the perspective of other people. I know how to be patient. I will do things for you and I won’t expect anything in return. To sum it all up, you can say I’m a little weirdo, because how many people do you know are like this?
When I’m quiet, I spend a lot of time reflecting. I think. Yes, maybe a little too much. Actually, yes, definitely too much. I’ve chosen to be this way because the alternative would be for me to be very angry. To be destructive. To be hurtful to others because of the hurt inside of me. So of these polar opposites, which would you choose? I chose the path that pleases God.
I don’t know if you can imagine an angry Sasha. A destructive one. One that is rude, one who will say things insensitively. One who is impatient and selfish. One who doesn’t care about anybody but herself. But that’s exactly the kind of Sasha that would exist if I didn’t have God in my life. It might be hard to imagine, but I’m telling the truth.
So I hope people embrace my quietness. Because I don’t feel that people do. I hope they don’t see it as being passive, because there is wisdom and reason behind my action and inaction. I hope that people don’t judge me for being different, because I don’t want to be the same as everyone, I don’t want to please everyone. I just want to please God, simple as that. I’m not sure what set off this vent, but it’s been in my heart for quite some time and it feels awesome to get it off my chest.