I keep having these moments when I’m deep in thought where I have a “freeze” moment. You know, like the ones in the movies where everything stops except for the main character and everything is frozen. Well mine happen for just a split second and in the second I’ve been consistently thinking about how fast my life is moving. It’s really moving quite fast actually. And then I have that thought that hits me square in the forehead where I think, HOLY CRAP I’M GROWING UP WAY TOO FAST. WHERE. DID. ALL. THE. TIME. GO. This coincidentally happens to occur right around birthday month too.
It’s crazy because most of my life I’ve been planning. It’s more of, “ok today I need to do this, this, and this. By this day I have to have that finished. In a month, I should have completed this…” I don’t get too much time to look and see how much I’ve actually accomplished until I’m all the way finished with so many things, and then I have that weird moment that I just mentioned. I’m near the end of my nursing program and I keep having those moments, but all of the things I still need to accomplish don’t seem they’re getting any less. It’s seems like even though I’ve done so much, I still have so much to do. But there really is still so much to do. As busy as I’ve been these past 3 years, I am only really beginning my career right now. And then in a couple years it’s back to school, and who knows when God is bringing Mr. Right into my life 😛 I haven’t even really thought about all that stuff yet either.
*sigh*
I can only thank God for giving me the energy to keep working this hard. Even on days where I feel like giving up, there’s always something that helps me get back to working right away. And in those moments, I know that I’m definitely on the path God wants me to be.