If you disappeared tomorrow, without a trace, without a notice, without a warning… who would look for you? Could you do it? Could you leave the life you know for a life that isn’t so secure?
I was reading Francis Chan’s “Crazy Love” again and a different message hit me with a different impact. If God called you to leave your home, your friends, loved ones… your comfort zone… and brought you to a completely foreign land with no one to rely on but God himself, would you do it? If He asked you to leave without even letting anyone know, could you do it?
To be completely honest, I have to say that right now, I want to. I really do. But I know that it’s easier to say it than to actually do it. Realistically, my mom would flip out. And she would totally track me down. Even if I told her I was following the will of God, I still think she would call me crazy and slap me up side the head as an instinctive reaction before realizing what exactly my actions entail. I’m sure my Dad would too. If you think about it though, isn’t our life here on earth supposed to be a service to God? Are we not here because of Him? Have we not been placed exactly where we are to follow His will?
I’m trying to move myself in that direction more and more these days. I think I’ve made more than enough excuses in my lifetime to delay that close relationship with God and I feel like the more I grow into adulthood, the more I realize that I don’t have much time. I have been caught in friendships and relationships that have completely consumed my life. I have used my pursuit of a nursing career as an excuse not to pray or read my Bible. I keep thinking that I’ll have time, I’ll have time. But I don’t even know if I have tomorrow. I don’t even know if I have this next minute.