Just got rejected from my first potential nursing job (supersadface). I made it to the final interview but I didn’t make the cut. But you know what, I really saw this coming. I knew I wouldn’t get it, not because I didn’t believe in myself or anything like that, but because it would’ve been too good to be true. First interview, at an awesome hospital, with someone you know on the panel? Don’t call me a pessimist or think that I’m being bitter, but I never envisioned myself really working there and was doubtful from the very beginning. And of course, there were too many other factors involved as well: waaaaay too far, it was only a part-time position, I never had a clinical there, I didn’t know anything about the hospital, or its working culture and so on and so forth. And of course, it just didn’t feel right. It still stings like crazy though, and considering that I felt pretty prepared for rejection, I still felt horribly about not getting the offer.
It just got me thinking though, about how much God is looking out for me. I’m 100% sure He is preparing me for something better. I have never lost faith in that fact. And throughout my life, I’ve seen Him lead me to places I’ve never thought I’d end up going. Case in point, nursing. In the very beginning, I never wanted to be a nurse. I made a *blegh* face whenever my mom mentioned that I consider it as a career. But God led me here and I haven’t found anything that I am more passionate about than this career. Point #2: Calstate LA. Super competitive program. I never thought I’d get in even though I worked my butt off (almost) the entire 2 years of pre-requisites. I still made it in the program, graduated after 3 years, and passed my boards. I can add on and on to this list, and tell you about so many things God has done… so I know that this rejection only means that this was not the right place for me.
I will say though, the interview process at this hospital was brutal. That’s probably a big reason why I took it so hard… because what I went through was extraordinarily mentally exhausting. Group interview, panel interview, speaking in front of about 50 people? It was no joke. But after that experience, I know now how to handle myself in that situation. I know how to interview a bit better, and like I’ve been saying, I think experiencing all of that was part of God’s plan to lead me to a better place for me.
My human tendencies often cause me to be doubtful, angry, and at times arrogant, thinking that I know better than others, that I know what’s best for me. It only takes something like this to get my perspective back in place and surrender to the one who really knows what’s best.