Growing

I have this tendency to, how should I put it… back down?

I’ve been reflecting again on how I work at work and how I can be a little better. I feel like I still struggle when it comes to time management, prioritization and delegation. I want to do everything by myself because I know I’m gonna do it right and that messes with my time management. Overall, I run all over the unit like there’s a fire under my ass. So I’ve been being a bit more conscious about delegating. Ultimately, this translates to me assessing the whole situation. When I ask for help, I’m also assessing the work load of who I’m asking and unfortunately, if they’re busy, I back down. What does this mean then? I get a little more busy, a little more pressured, and definitely pressed for time.

This concerns me because it takes away from the patient’s experience when I deliver care. I hate hate hate it when I rush. It’s not that I’m more prone to making mistakes, although that’s true too, but it’s because I feel like I’m not taking time to be there for my patient. I don’t want to be that kind of nurse. I want to be the kind of nurse that I set out to be when I started all of this. I know I’m getting better, but I still feel bad about all the patients I unfortunately gave a sub par experience.

*sigh*

I know. I’m not super nurse. I don’t come out perfect, nor is the goal to be perfect. It’s a journey and we’re all growing. I’ll get there. I’m already getting there.