I finally got it done 🙂
Every time I accomplish something big like this, I feel this surge of pride for having overcome all the long nights and long shifts. I worked full time for more than half of grad school and I can’t believe I got through it. I remember driving home from LLU and crying – crying because I had just finished a crazy hard shift and still had hours of studying left to do at home. I remember sitting up on the parking roof top looking at the sunset, trying to clear my head, trying to find clarity and purpose for all the madness I was inflicting upon myself… I remember the anxiety I had when I was transitioning to my dream hospital from a hospital that had become a dream to me… In just two years, I could not have imagined how much change I would trek through and how painful those growing pains would actually be.
But I did it 🙂
And now comes the, “now what?” Sash – you have your Master’s degree – a goal you had when you first started nursing school. Now, you’ve completed it just about three and a half years out from graduating from your BSN. You still have years and years of your career ahead of you and you’ve done so much in such a short amount of time to grow into the amazing nurse that you are now. And that’s pretty crazy too, huh? You think you’re an amazing nurse 😛 Hell yeah. I worked damn hard to be where I am today and I still have so much more to go through to be better than who I was yesterday. The grind doesn’t stop – BUT! But I am going to take two seconds to take a break, to take care of myself… to remember and reinforce why it is that I am doing all of this in the first place. This is my “now what” at least for the next six months. Because that’s important, at least to me. I want to grow more and more in love with the work that I do and I want to be the best that I can be at it. And sometimes, that means taking care of myself.
I can’t forget who helped me get here and why it is I am working this hard. I’m thankful for a God that has been with me when I felt like I couldn’t wake up in the morning to get my work done. I’m thankful for his grace and patience when I drifted away because of all the busy-ness I burdened myself with. I’m thankful that He has kept the right people in my life to always remind me of who I am at my core and who I can be. I’m hopeful for what He has in store for me and I’m hoping that in this time of rest, I can lean into Him to help me through the struggles I’m facing right now.