I met up with the nursing crew the other day! It was fun 🙂
In college, I really like planning hang outs. I feel like I planned out a lot of them. I can’t really say why I stopped doing it, but part of it was that I was the only one planning these events lol At a certain point, I felt like no one was as into these get-togethers as I was and soon it was just harder and harder to get people together, with varying schedules, work, school, and a bunch of other excuses. So now I’ve lost motivation to do them at all.
Why I held off on getting together with the nursing peeps is a different story… but you know what? It was total nostalgia meeting up with these people. A bunch of memories rushed in and I found myself physically shaking my head, trying to get certain memories out, like one of those etch-a-sketch toys. At the same time it was like, I really missed these guys, I wish I had tried harder to stay close.
We talked about work, or I guess they talked about work life and stuff like that. I kinda reverted to my mute-like state and did a lot of listening, as usual. Which is totally annoying! Because I feel like at work, I’m not like that anymore. I felt uncomfortable, but I didn’t want to leave. I didn’t want to come, but I still convinced myself that I needed to see them. Overall, I felt disconnected, because I’ve already disconnected myself from them a long time ago.
But as I stated in the beginning, it was fun. As conflicted as I sound right now about all of this, I really did enjoy seeing them again. I loved how I still laugh for no other reason at all than for the fact that my friend’s laugh is so contagious. I loved hearing how well my friends are doing at work, how we face similar struggles and are getting through it, and how they shared their horror stories at work. I loved seeing how different we all have become, and yet at the core, are all still the same people we were a couple years ago. I’m talking as if it was so long ago, but it’s only been about a year since we all got together.
I’m going through another rough patch this year and seeing old friends has opened my eyes up to a lot of different things. The nostalgia wasn’t as warm this time around, it was a bit prickling. Still, I really hope we all stay close and even if we don’t, I’m really happy to have had the chance to be friends with each of them.