Exactly one year ago, I stepped into that smelly old auditorium with my bright yellow folder in hand, fear and excitement in the other, while still holding a multitude of expectations and plans in my mind. Of course I came in with expectations, but at the same time, I had none at all. This was the beginning, and nothing had excited me nor has anything made me feel more proud of myself that sitting with that exclusive group of people. Nothing. Exactly one year ago, I was a first year nursing student. I had no idea what I was in for.
Exactly one year later, I carry the same fear and excitement I held that first day of orientation. This time I feel more ready, more inspired, and more determined to prove that I can be better. Nursing, it’s hard. Nursing school has proven to be much harder. Now, I have amazing friends to support me. Now, I am motivated by a passion I don’t quite remember ever having before, and this feeling, it is a sign of change that I feel I have been missing for a while. I’m changing. I’m growing. I feel it. I am not the same person I was exactly one year ago. Exactly one year from now, I can only hope that I am not the same person I am today, that I am better, that my passion has grown stronger, and that the people I have kept around me will stay around me.
Thank you Lord for this change. Everything may not be perfect right now, but everything feels right. It is more than I deserve, it is more than I can ask for. Continue guiding me, and You can be sure that I will follow.