I think it takes a lot of courage to see the light in even the darkest circumstances. I think it’s a form of denial and in a way, a form of self protection to continually be positive and push to be positive when your whole body is being drawn so strongly to the negative. So today, I’m pushing positive. Just keep smiling. Just keep laughing. Just keep swimmin’, swimmin’, swimmin hehe like Dori 🙂
*SIGHHHHHHHHHHHH*
But let’s be real for a sec here. The emotions I’m feeling are ohhhh so familiar and the anxiety I’m feeling is ohhhhh so burdensome, it’s almost painful. But in light of evident dark valley in my life, there is still so much to be thankful for, there is so much good in this world that I can be a part of, there is something great to look forward to. I’m patiently waiting for my moment, but I’m not denying that the wait is very tiring :’)
I’m still applying to a lot of places, and I’ve resorted to applying to out of state hospitals. The idea of it becomes more and more exciting to me despite the resistance of my family. Starting fresh, new city, new friends, and somewhat of a brand new life. I kind of hope that God would give me that opportunity to start all over again. I’d like somewhat of a clean slate to get a second chance…  😛
Anyway, back to the point:Â Push for positive, because it can change your perspective. In life, we don’t get the luxury of second chances, and we really don’t get to erase memories and regrets either, even if you have a mountain of them. So be positive and be kind. Be kind to others and be kind to yourself. And I’m going to emphasize the “be kind to yourself” part too. Give yourself some slack, don’t sweat the small stuff, and buy yourself and ice cream when you do something awesome.
