Among all the experiences I’ve had in 2016, I am deeply humbled by what I’ve been through. I’ve never cried so much in one year hahaha But I’ve had lots of amazing experiences, crazy loads of challenges, and new blessings in the form of friends that have become family. Just as I started my 2016, I hope I can start 2017 with the same prayer… that I never forget to praise God when He blesses me, and that in the same way, I never forget to praise Him for the trials and challenges that come my way… because every experience builds me up and brings me closer to where God wants me to be, and ultimately, no matter how much I plan for myself, His plan for me is better than anything I can even begin to imagine. No matter how I see it, I am so humbled and grateful for what God has done for me this year. I still don’t feel I deserve any of it. But I’m thankful for all of it and will continue to live my life to serve my God.
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Crossroads
I’m coming to that point again where I reflect on my life and reconstruct and rebuild what I want for myself. It’s something I know that I do often because I have this fear that I might disappoint God if I ever make the mistake of being selfish in my actions and do something that only I want to do. There are a lot of distractions for me right now and there’s a lot of, “Why am I still tolerating this?” There’s a lot of, why aren’t you a little better, why are you so slow, what excuse are you going to give yourself next? I’m in the last quarter of being 25 and I don’t know that I’ve done what I’ve wanted to do… It’s disappointing and I’m extremely upset. What makes this slightly more difficult is that I don’t know anyone I can vent about this to, I feel very much alone. I remember, a few days ago, after work, I drove home crying. I felt overwhelmed, and as I prayed to God as I do sometimes after work, I couldn’t handle all of the thoughts that were bombarding me. I felt like I wasn’t doing enough… at…
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Living Out My Faith
I used to use this blog as my devotional/prayer site. I think I’m gonna try and keep that in the mix while I work to make this a new routine in my schedule 🙂 So here it goes: In my very short 25 years of life, I feel like I’ve gone through a lot and I’ve asked God for a lot of things. Some of things I’ve asked for, I never got. For the most part, I’ve gotten something much better. And as far as I can remember, I credit my faith for helping me get through all the challenges that life has given me and my relationship with God that I try to pursue wholeheartedly. I’ve attempted to live out a faith where people can see God through my actions and that I could be that proverbial light on hill for others to see. I really hope that people can see God in what I do, but hey, I’ll never know, will I? So here I am, challenging myself once again, to live out my faith and go a little further than I have in the past. Just in the last 5 years, I have seen God’s love for…