It’s my birthday!!! Yayyy!!! And I’m spending it writing a new post =] No, well, yes, but that wasn’t my whole day. Anywhooo, I’m 20!! Last week my friends Zeth, Martha, Gloria, Michele, and Richard surprised me with a lunch and chocolate cake at school. LOL they were so funny. Apparently, they had been planning it for a while, and I kind of knew they were planning something, but I let them think nothing was up. So we meet up with Richard after Psych and he’s holding sodas, and said, Zeth told me to bring them for later. LOL he didn’t know I didn’t know about the surprise party. And then Michele here couldn’t look me in the eye for the longest time. Lunch time finally came along and Gloria and Michele went to go get something from their car. They come back and randomly say, let’s go outside, it’s hot in here. LOL it was fine, but I went with it and SURPRISE!! Out by the patio was a Porto’s cake and sandwiches for lunch =] Even though I knew they were planning something, I was soooo happy. They really made the transitions into the twenties a good and…

NAILS IN THE FENCE There once was a little boy who had a bad temper…. His Father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence. The first day  the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence… Over the next few weeks, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily  gradually dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence. Finally the day came when the boy didn’t lose his temper at all. He told his  father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nailfor each day that he was able to hold his temper. The days  passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone. The father  took his son by the hand and led him to the fence. He said, ‘You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will  never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just…

So I just played my first game of basketball in a long time last night. We had our bouts of ups and downs, bad calls by the ref, and all that stuff, but I was so surprised at how important winning was to all of my teammates. As a Wednesday church league, you’d figure the people to be more mature and really see beyond the winning and losing, because for me, winning isn’t everything. But they beg to differ. Winning is everything to them. I guess I get it though, they see life as a bunch of winners and losers, and they always want to be the winners. I guess they don’t buy into the “everyone’s a winner” saying either. But am I wrong for not thinking winning is everything? Because to me, it’s what you get out the situation that makes you a winner every time. Whether I win or lose, I learn something. Whether it’s something big or something little, there is always something I can take away from each situation I’m in. Plus, losing is part of life. You can’t rationally expect to win or succeed in everything you do. Failure is expected sometimes. Losing is expected.…

Isn’t weird how people know what they want, when the reality is that they really don’t? What they really know is what they don’t want, and then they assume that what they want is the things they don’t don’t want.  Confusing, right? Yeah, I lost myself too. But it is frustrating to hear people say, you’re too young, you don’t know what you want. You don’t know what to be. You need to venture out into the world and explore. And then there are those people who seem to know you more than you know yourself. Well, I’m young. But I know what I want. I know what I’m meant to do. I’m not expecting myself to live up to all my expectation, I’m not expecting to fulfill all my goals, but I do expect myself to try my best to get them. I do expect many many obstacles. I do expect verging off the path once in a while. It’s going to happen, because life  is never what you expect it to be. But I am meant to be better than any temptation or obstacle that gets in my way. I am meant to be stronger and wiser. I…