There were only a handful of things I remember in my undergraduate classes that have made a big impact in the way I think. It was from my honors philosophy class, and I actually participated in the arguments a few times in class. Go figure. I never was one to speak at all 😛 Anyway, the first topic was happiness. The meaning of it, whether or not it was attainable, whether or not it was an appropriate goal in life, and the perspectives of different classical philosophers. The second topic was the act of doing good. Similar to happiness, the definition of it, what our motivations are and whether it was something that society as a whole should aim for. And of course, different philosophers’ takes on it too. Wow, deep. * I’ll save you the nosebleed and just get straight to what I got out of the discussions. * HAPPINESS – my perspective? Subjective. Only you can decide on what makes you happy and by that, I mean you control your attitude and perspective on any and every situation that you get through. You will never ever be in a constant state of happiness, and even in a happy state of…

It’s sometimes hard for me to keep saying to trust in God… to obey His will, to wait on His timing… but I keep saying it because I believe it. And even though not everyone understands why I keep saying this and thinking it, I stand firm in my faith because God hasn’t let me down this whole time and I’ve relied on his perfect timing to direct my next steps. What is this? What are you really getting at?? Secret 🙂 A lot of firsts happening once again and I can’t help but smile and secretly say to all those people who are indirectly pressuring me to things I’m not ready for… I told you so 🙂 It’ll happen when it happens, and until then I’ll just keep praying to God to help me be a better me. That’s still the case. But I’m glad some things are starting to change and that I feel ready to handle all of it. For the most part at least. Thank you God. Only you know what’s in my heart and what I need. I’m grateful for your blessing over my life and I hope that I’m living my life according to…

Sometimes, I feel really out of place. I don’t feel like I think the same way as everyone or act the same. My priorities are different. My goals are different. My outlook on life are different. I often struggle and it’s made me feel extremely isolated. Case in point, my friends. Err… I mean friend. Isn’t that crazy? I only have one friend. Lot of acquaintances and a lot of co-workers. Lots of family. But only one person that I feel like I can trust and rely on when it comes to figuring out this sometimes complicated thing called life. Point number 2. I struggle with the label of being quiet. In the beginning I was a bit arrogant about it. So what if I’m quiet? That’s just me. How can I change me?? But now I think, gosh, do you really need to be so quiet? Don’t be so scared. Trust a little. Change a little. Now, I’m 25. 25. Official quarter life crisis in motion.  I’ve never been in a serious relationship. I can blame a lot of things for that. But they’re really all just excuses. And for the first time, I feel really scared to be…

I have this tendency to, how should I put it… back down? I’ve been reflecting again on how I work at work and how I can be a little better. I feel like I still struggle when it comes to time management, prioritization and delegation. I want to do everything by myself because I know I’m gonna do it right and that messes with my time management. Overall, I run all over the unit like there’s a fire under my ass. So I’ve been being a bit more conscious about delegating. Ultimately, this translates to me assessing the whole situation. When I ask for help, I’m also assessing the work load of who I’m asking and unfortunately, if they’re busy, I back down. What does this mean then? I get a little more busy, a little more pressured, and definitely pressed for time. This concerns me because it takes away from the patient’s experience when I deliver care. I hate hate hate it when I rush. It’s not that I’m more prone to making mistakes, although that’s true too, but it’s because I feel like I’m not taking time to be there for my patient. I don’t want to be…

Hello hello and Happy New Year! (Kinda late but oh well :P) I went to the Philippines this past December and had a great time with family. And for the first time, it felt like a vacation with all the adventures that we went on this time around. I’ll leave the details for another time 🙂 But what is this? Quarter life crisis? What? So, I turn 25 this Saturday. And like I always do, I’m in super reflection mode again. Have I done what I’ve wanted to do in my life so far? Where am I going next? Am I doing everything God wants me to do in my life? You know, little stuff like that. Not heavy or deep at all 😛 In all seriousness, every time I get a chance to think like this, I am challenged to exert myself a little bit more – to step up, to grow, and to find an even greater meaning in my life. I keep looking back a little and think, did I miss out on anything? The parties, clubbing, drinking and hanging out with friends, things of that sort. Do I still want to experience things like that? I…